No longer am I tied to my past, where I wished everyone including the neighbours cat a happy blessing for the season. I have finally believed enough in myself to bestow my blessings on a selected few. I have always believed that it is not only right to send such wishes on special occasions, but it gave a genuine connection to those with whom I shared my blessings. However, I have realised at last that the responses were mostly those of obligation to reply. The indifference to my wishes and the obligation to reply are the same as the shop assistant saying, 'Have a nice day!' requires the appropriate response of, 'And to you also!' This is despite his indifference at his counter, despite how he queried the article in question and called for price check that must have had to be sourced from the country of origin! And, now I am late for an appointment.
I have come to realise that my wishes and blessings of the season were replied to only by obligation. There was no meaning nor sensitivity to the replies, it was simply a matter of, lets reply and get this over with! The next season is just around the corner and I must do this before the next text rolls in. I know everyone is time poor with a busy lifestyle but, these holidays and celebrations, give us that little bit of time to take stock and remember those who have helped us, and are dear to us, on the pathway of life.
This year I have celebrated in a more low key fashion. I have actually shared it with people that are dear and near to me. My celebration was not tied to elder clansmen and women's desires for things to be done their way or not at all. My celebration was one of hope, that there is indeed that of life after death, new beginnings and a tangible happiness that comes from this.That there is hope for a better future, hope for a world of peace and hope that we will see equality for all by the time I finally close my eyes to begin that other journey. This is the finally the celebration that I truly wanted and this year has seen the first of those dreams and aspirations to start in full. This is on my bucket list and I want to achieve that.
I wished to spend my time with people who equally respected me and I celebrated this occasion (Easter) without fear without condemnation for simply being me. It was relaxed, emotions were stable and all enjoyed each other's company and no remorse as to why we celebrated in the first place. There were no hidden agendas - only agendas of like minded people celebrating life after death.
To those who fear these occasions, I beg for you to begin your next celebration as that - a celebration of renewal, a celebration of life. A celebration of love, not one that you must peer over your shoulder to wonder what the actual agenda is and who may stab you.
Think positively - the world is a much better place without the negativity of those who have no feeling but for themselves. The world needs positivity that creates peace and harmony - not a world of derision. Only then can these days of celebration be visionary to a world of peace for which we celebrate.
Take care till next time
Bitchescoz!
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